From now on I’m going to post guest letters on the main page, just way easier to find and comment. Today’s edition comes from Leoni Evans (http://twitter.com/#!/legpresslover), who is a fan of beards, which is a good thing for me.
I didn’t really know how to start this letter but I would like to say thank you. To many people especially my family and friends that would seem strange but I cannot begin to express the impact you have had on my life and my outlook. From the second we met in that chance encounter you had me smiling and for the first time in years I felt happy and probably for the first time ever I felt truly content. You have given me faith in love, you have shown me what love actually is, what it can and should be. You are a hard act to follow, I will never settle for anything less now.
From an outside perspective it would appear that you broke my heart, but it was the situation that was the heartbreaker not you. As cliché as it sounds I believe that if our circumstances were different we would still be living a happy life together. The person you are and how you live your life is responsible for a lot of that, with your health conditions you are somewhat like Peter Pan and I envy that. Yes you have a tendency to over think things at times but for the most part you live life for the moment, you look for fun and kicks, I wish I could live my life like that but it isn’t my nature, we complemented each other in so many ways.
I have never experienced such a raw and animalistic attraction with someone before, remembering the way you would chew your lip, let out an uncontrolled guttural growl and grab me close still brings a smile to my face. I really miss the closeness we shared, the way that we unconsciously stroked or touched each other, the way we slept entwined all night, and how even during sleep we reached out if the other had moved. I felt so connected to you and being in your arms felt like home.
I felt it then and still do now, you complete me. Life took us in different directions, and as much as we felt for each other sometimes you listen to your head not your heart. To this day I regret not driving those 6 hours to see you when you said you couldn’t do it anymore, to see your face one last time to end our time together properly, to reassure you that I did know it was the best thing for us to do although it felt like everything was falling apart.
I hope to meet you again in the future, when I’ve done the things I want to do and am in a position of freedom. I know that won’t be for at least a few years and that a lot of things can happen over that amount of time, but deep down you will still be the same young, fun, caring and loving person you always have been and someone that can only enhance my life.
Until that day arrives I hope we both continue living in a way that brings us happiness, laughter and love.